*knock, knock* Hello? Jodie? Is that YOU?

Why yes it is, and thanks for asking!

To make a long story short, just that little additional 10 mg of Paxil has almost made me feel like me again.

Even Glynn noticed. We had a great weekend. We really reconnected and started to feel like us again. He told me he felt like he was seeing "his" Jodie again and wondered out loud where I had been.

(I had a minor relapse last night after bathtime where some anxiety set back in and I flipped the crazy switch a little, but I turned it right back off, don't worry. This is slow and steady progress, people, but it's coming! I'm in here somewhere!)

We did absolutely NOTHING this weekend but be together, all of us. The four of us had a pajama weekend where we just spent time together. We needed some time to regroup and recharge and reconnect as a family, and that's exactly what we did. We had a mental health weekend. It was awesome. Amazing, actually, is the word I would use, because I haven't seen myself or felt that good for a very long time. I really started to feel like me again. I think it's due to a number of things, but adjusting medication is no small part of that. What a godsend it is to feel like I'm back in my own skin again.

Again, sorry honey for the outburst last night but I'm back! I'm still here! I just get a bit frantic sometimes when the kids are ganging up on me and kicking my ass but I've recovered. We may have to tag you in some nights after bathtime, when I'm lying sweating and panting on the floor after wrestling two slippery little balls of dynamite in and out of the bathtub. They're starting to realize that the two of them together can almost overpower me, and it's scary. :) Instead of getting crazy, I just need to enjoy the moment and not worry about the mess. It's hard for me to just let that go, but I'm working on it. I love you and the kids so much. Thanks for sticking with me through the dark days. I'm back, I'm back, I'm back! I really feel good about this!

Sorry for the personal note, people, but I have no filter, as you all know, and whatever is in my head just comes out through my fingers onto this blog. Bear with me. There's good stuff here.

Work is a bit crazy today and I'm pretty tired, but I'm in much better spirits than I have been in for WEEKS so I'm just wanting to share!

Off to clear off a bit more of my desk....

Thanks, everybody, for hanging in there with me. Especially YOU, Glynn. You deserve a medal for all of this. :) I love you.